Letter from a Past Love

I hear life has changed for you, Young Heart.  I hear you are really working on getting your life moving forward toward your dreams.  I am so pleased to hear this as I know you have awaited the moment to begin again.

I wonder how you are handling slips in your life.  Are you still berating yourself until you are black and blue?  I pray for you that you are not doing this any longer, Young Heart.  I know what misery this caused your soul.  I know what heartache you felt at your disappointments.  I recall those dark eyes looking sharply at me as if I had done something harmful.  I want to forget those memories so badly.  I always wanted to run and hold you close, but you seemed to push away.  I understand now how hard a time you had in living in your own skin at those moments. 

I suppose today you are doing without this unnecessary reprimanding of yourself.  I hear you have come far.  You are helping others now with their struggles.  What a joy for you.  What a gift you have achieved to turn your life around and give away the results.  Do not feel bashful that I tell you this.  You never were good at accepting compliments. 

How is your family?  I know how important they have been to your journey.  The grapevine has it your father passed away.  I know this must have been the most difficult time you have gone through.  Well, actually you have been through many difficult times, but I am sure this event impacted you like no other.  I am sorry I was not there to console you.  I would have told you how much you meant to him.  I know you regret many of your actions toward your father.  You have struggled with this for some time.  How are you doing today with these painful feelings?  I would tell you it is still okay if I was there today, and I would tell you how much you meant to him.

There is one thing I have to tell you.  I am sorry for the struggles you went through when we were joined together.  You were my soul mate, and I saw you in deep pain and confusion.  I know this must have felt like a tornado whirling inside of you.  I have accepted what happened to you.  Have you? 

You were stricken with an illness like no other.  It grabbed your soul and spread you thin across the sky.  I have not forgotten the wreckage your illness caused you and as well me.  I hope you know I forgive your actions.  You were not yourself.  I have let it go.

I am grateful I got the courage to write to you.  You have not left my heart.  Word has it you are well today.  And, I am so pleased to know you have built a life for yourself.  Move forward, Young Heart, into the journey of a thousand miles.  You have dreamed of opportunities undefined.  I believe you have found the first step.

Get back home where you belong,
and don't you run off no more...